The Dreaded Weigh-In

Well, this morning was my weigh-in for the first week. I was very nervous about it, and terrified that I hadn't lost any weight. That's the biggest hurdle in weight-loss for me - keeping my motivation up when my progress seems to go at a snail's pace. When the numbers are small or worse yet, when I hit a plateau, I tend to give up because I think, "What's the point? It's not working anyway!" So my stomach was churning when I stepped onto the scale. I did lose some weight, but I have to confess to being rather disappointed with the number. I've only lost 4 pounds so far. It is at least a loss, but an awfully small one. I think when I was on this program the first time I lost something like 10 pounds the first week, and I weighed 100 pounds less then than I do now. So I'm a bit discouraged this morning, but I'm going to keep on plugging away at it. Maybe this week I'll do better.

So yesterday was a pretty average day for the diet so far. No raging hunger, but no skipping meals either. I started the day a little bit late, but not too bad, and kept my eating on schedule. I was actually quite full after dinner last night, which was nice. The first few days I'd eat a meal and then look around for the rest of it since my stomach was still growling! Hopefully it's started to shrink down and get used to several smaller meals rather than a few large ones. My energy levels still haven't started rising though. I'd really like to get to that part of it soon!

Breakfast: 2 eggs, scrambled, 1/2 lb sausage - 2.7g
Lunch: 1/4 lb deli ham w/mustard, cheese stick - 1.3g
Snack: None
Dinner: 1/2 lb ham steak, 2/3 cup peas - 15.4g
Dessert: None
Total: 19.3g

This week will be interesting in another way as well...my doctor raised the dosage on my Effexor from 150mg to 225mg per day. We'll see if that helps with the mental/emotional side of this whole diet process, or if I even notice any difference. I'm so bad at evaluating my own mental state! I also have to think of a reason to give my mother for not having a birthday dinner tomorrow - I'm not telling anybody in my family I'm doing this so they don't nag at me constantly about it, and there's no way I can eat out without screwing up my plan at this point. My body and my brain are still thinking about carbs, and one carb-loaded restaurant meal and I'm back to square one. I am not willing to do that to myself, it was hard enough getting through the first week as it was! See you all tomorrow...